the wishing well.

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i just wish it could be simple
i wish an onion didn’t have so many layers
i wish the peeling of papery wrappers wouldn’t make me want to cry

i wish that time could be examined 

i wish moments could be held

i wish you and i together had a reason, had a rhyme


i wish love could be the answer

i wish romance wouldn’t lie

i wish little things like these every time we say goodbye


i wish i’d leaned my head against your shoulder

i wish you’d look me in the eye

i wish it wouldn’t be so complicated to move on and have a life


i wish i was a kinder person

i wish well for you and her, but

i wish i had been honest; when you asked, i said “i’m fine.”


i wish the energy hadn’t faded

i wish we’d lasted as a team

i wish that at the very least, that was something i could keep


i just wish it could be simple

i wish i knew the reason why

i keep wishing for a friendship that might really be a lie.







*originally written in june 2021

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